Friday, May 7, 2010

Upside down and inside out...

Been on the move lately and the only thing I've really used the comp for is geocaching. I haven't farmed in a week.

Here is the entry she wanted me to put in that I wrote on the way home and never posted. More to follow later I promise...

Apparently I’m long overdue on this thing, so here ya go. Sorry if this one is more tear jerking than side-splitting. This is probably gonna be more of a love letter to the greatest woman in my life, made public.

Currently I find my self headed home. Finally! I’ve just gotten back from talking to her and I left in a bit of a tiff over something that pisses me off more than most. Long story short, You don’t flirt with another Tech’s girl regardless of the circumstances. Point is, I’m coming HOME. That place where green grass grows, cool water flows, and you get to look that special someone in the eye when you tell them you love them and a headset and good internet connection is no longer necessary. Home…

A lot of sayings out there about home.

“Home is where the heart is”

“Home is wherever you hang your hat”

“Home is where you make it”

All true, depending on your views of life. As most of my stories are told in the present tense so shall this one…

Here I sit taking my boots off in Spain and for the first time look at the battle scars they bare. The circles from the sweat, the blood stains of friend and foe, the hardened parts from the date juice in our training area, my blood type in Sharpie on the inside upper portion of my right boot, the frayed bootlaces, even the dogtag in my left boot, shiny from constant wear and the copper wire holding it in place that I pulled form an IED I worked shortly after I arrived in country. “Never Alone” plays in the background. I actually take a moment to listen to the words. They couldn’t be more true. What most of you don’t know is No helped me to deal with a VERY hard time in my life and that’s how our relationship grew to be what it is. Since the day we decided we should try things out with us, I’ve dealt with some horrible times. Stress from work, stress from life, near death experiences, and a lingering fear of today could be the last. All that time I’ve known that you were wondering where and what I was doing when I knew that at moments I was EXTREMELY glad that you weren’t aware of what I was doing. Because I knew you would be at wits end and deathly afraid. I’ve never felt alone since you came into my life. I’ve never felt unwanted. I’ve never felt unimportant. I’ve always felt lucky to have you and like I say, “I’d rather be lucky than good any day”. I’ll be home soon. I’m at a point now that seconds seem like hours and hours seem to never end. I miss you, but I’ll be there before you know it. “When hard times have found me, I’ve wrapped your love around me and Realized I’m never alone.”

5 comments:

  1. I really hope you keep writing, between cuddle sessions with your awesome girl of course. I am so glad you are home.

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  2. Home is where your wife's bra lands!

    Welcome back!!!!

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  3. Thank you for your service. I'm glad you're back home! I hope you're off enjoying yourself...you deserve it.

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  4. This is beautifully written! Would like to read more!

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